Fighting for my Freedom

I can’t even begin to express the pain and sadness I have felt in the past few months. I have been anxious,depressed, exhausted, emotionally hurting, just pained. The thing is I know it’s my fault! I know that God is greater than anything I have or will go through, yet I allow myself to stay trapped in this hamster wheel of pain and suffering.

It’s a daily struggle for me to remind myself that I belong to someone else, I am not my own but I belong to Him. I don’t do my job, be a mother and a wife for myself, I have to do it for Him, and I seem to have lost that focus. I know that He must increase and I must decrease. Everything I do must be for his glory and not for my own. My job can be stressful, especially when it feels like I get nothing in return. In times like that I have to remember that my reward is in heaven, I don’t always get the praise that I want here on earth.I have to look at my job and my life through a new set of eyes, through His eyes. I know that I have got to start doing everything in love. This has been so hard the past few months.

I personally have been through things that I don’t have clarity on, things that i don’t know why they happened but I trust that God allowed them as part of his plan. But there are things that have  happened in my life that I came out of with a stronger faith, an ability to really see God for who he is. Through the struggles I have seen the power of my God. I have seen healing of all sorts, emotional, relational, physical, and spiritual. I have experienced things I never imagined I would experience. Even after having seen Jesus for who He is and Him being everything the word says he is I still allowed myself to “fall away”.

In January my church hosted an event called World Mandate. This event is hosted pretty much every year. After all I’ve been through this past year and “falling away” I was kind of hesitant to go. Part of me was excited, the other part scared because I already had an idea of what was going to happen. I told myself though no matter what you are going and you are going to sacrifice these 2 days to focus on God, no excuses. I was anxious, I didn’t plan anything out for the weekend and I said I’m gonna wing it.

The very first night of World Mandate during worship I had a breakthrough, a crying out to God.I don’t think I have ever called out to God as a father . I cried out “daddy” to God. I wept, fell to my knees, I felt free for the first time in a long time,I cried so much it felt like I was letting my pain just run out. I felt His unfailing love. My heart felt at peace and I thanked God for allowing me to finally feel something, I had allowed myself to feel numb for so long. I begged forgiveness for the person I had allowed myself to become. I had become mean, lacking empathy, unhappy. It was liberating to experience God that night.

The 2nd day of World Mandate I took my daughter with me and prayed things would go well as she is 4 years old. I had felt like such a failure this past year, I felt like I was a horrible parent and nothing I did was right. I know I had tried to model for my children a relationship with Jesus even though I felt like I personally failed. As we began worship the 2nd day I look over and I see and hear my 4 year old worshiping with me. While I was in deep worship I heard a little voice crying out JESUS! JESUS! I looked over and saw my daughter crying out to HIM! I fell apart, tears flowed, all I could think was ” she knows you Lord, she sees you, she knows that you are the Lord, why can’t I have that faith, that pure belief,renew me God, let me see you like she does!” This little person beside me reminded me who God was.She helped open my eyes.

It was so wonderful this year for my 8 year old to participate in World Mandate as well. He attended the kids conference and it was so amazing to see what God did in him. A few days after World Mandate I was feeling kinda “blah” and I came across a booklet my son had brought home from World Mandate. As I read the things my son had wrote down, things and people he had prayed for I felt renewed. I was I can honestly say that World Mandate was a turning point for me and my family. Things have not been perfect. The enemy is working overtime to get me back to where I was. But there is victory in Jesus over the enemy! I have immersed myself back into community where I can be spiritually fed and held accountable.I am on a new path, a path to growth in Jesus!

I just want to close out with prayer.

Dear God, I thank you for allowing me to open my eyes to you. I thank you for a renewal in my spirit. I thank you for growth and restoration in my home. I pray that your Spirit would continue to cover us and guide us. I pray Lord for a continued outpouring of your love over us. I pray for a revival in the church. I pray that your people would continue to rise up and your word would be spread across the nations of the earth, so that all may hear. I pray that hearts would be turned back to you, lives would be changed, families restored. A resurrection of the dead hearts! I ask this in your sweet name Jesus.

This was my daughter passed out on the couch at church after worship the 2nd day of World Mandate.


The road to hell is wide, but the way to heaven is narrow and few will follow that path.


Peace, Please

By John Cooper

If rioting, threatening, stealing/looting, breaking and entering, destruction of property, assaults, and killing are your way of responding to an incident based off third party, often biased observations caused by an unwanted, unwarranted seeding of division planted by multiple influential entities…..Tell me, what happens if video surfaces that proves contrary to biased third party reports?

We’ll look at the Keith Scott case. The incident happened. Police make their report. Third party witnesses post theirs on social media outlets. Third party post goes viral. Police release initial police reports that don’t line up with certain third party witnesses, but is corroborated by many others including all other officers present- Police announce however the officer involved was not wearing a body camera- which the media immediately pointed out-(Body cams are excellent sources of evidence for Officers, but are expensive to implement departmentally and are not mandated by all agencies/states translating to only 3% of Officer involved deaths being caught on bodycam). Outright pandemonium ensues in the city, fueled by mainstream and social media. Buildings are destroyed! Businesses are looted. Innocent people are hurt, killed in response to conflicting reports. BUT WAIT, dashcam video evidence corroborating the Officer’s reports is released to the public! Uh-oh, Now what? It seems that the Officer’s reports have been validated. The family sees the dashcam video, but the family attorney states the “victim’s”-(or…Subject’s) family has more questions now than answers. The same family members who claimed he was sitting peacefully in his vehicle reading a book. Meanwhile, the city of Charlotte is really in a State of Emergency.

But, what happens after the details are released that prove contrary to initial reports that caused the rioting, destruction, and killing before? Nothing! No rebuilding! No apologies! More chaos! More distrust! MORE DIVISION!!!

Presidential candidates are taking to social media- not to address innocent people being assaulted and killed in the wake of a police involved shooting, but to insist that police shootings must stop. Well Hillary Clinton, Police shootings will not stop. Police will, and should, protect and serve their communities with the utmost dedication, humility, and capability. See, that last word- capability- implies that they are capable of taking the appropriate action required based off of the DETAILS of the situation at hand to protect themselves, and others-(Us). Sometimes, these details are hard to interpret to people unfamiliar with law enforcement response to perceived/ imminent threat of danger to themselves or others. A Judge in Maryland has stated that it is reasonable that young black men should fear for their lives when confronted by police and are even justified in fleeing from police in fear. Friends on my Facebook account have stated they’re scared to step out in public, or to take their kids out in public. What I’ve seen in the last eight years is a deliberate fear resulting in division amongst American people of all colors rooted from seeds planted in fertile soil. What I mean is that there is an agenda to pander and formulate, so there has to be a problem big enough for an unprecedented, sweeping “change”. Enough people have to be talking and physically reacting to a perceived nationwide problem for it to be rectified on a national level, whatever the ultimate goal or remedy may be. Racism has again become an issue, RECENTLY, RIGHT NOW. People on all sides are tired of these things happening by now. Black people are fed up. White people are fed up. Hispanics are fed up- with Trump. Sure, Racism’s been around forever, and unfortunately, always will! We are people, and far from perfect- susceptible to many influences. Different people and cultures evolve and adapt completely different from anyone else, right or wrong based off the laws of good and evil, forming individuals all uniquely our own person with our own specific beliefs, values, and education. I’m white. Never in my life have I been taught to be Racist. Many people would say I didn’t have to be taught it because it is ingrained in me- (white privilege). Never have I been taught, nor have taught my children, to look upon ANYONE OF ANY COLOR any different than themselves. But I have been taught that there is a perfect image of love we should emulate, and His name is Jesus Christ. I promise you Brother-Sister, I will never disrespect you based off the color of your skin.

Celebrities have stated that the US needs to implement better training for police officers nationwide. I think continued education in ANY workforce is great. But guess what, Law Enforcement Officers do have continued education, mandated by the State. Some courses are mandatory and some are electorate. This education advances them through periods of time to different levels of Officers- Basic, Advanced, Master, etc….There are plenty of outstanding Officers that are humbly willing to sacrifice their lives for the advancement of yours. I work with some currently, and I’ve made more brothers and sisters in Law Enforcement over the last 8 years of my life then I can count- shout out to the great people at Baylor Police Department, McLennan County Sheriff’s Office, and all surrounding area agencies. These people are not just people. They are not just friends. We are family. All that to say, man…..It hurts to see people you admire, respect, and sacrifice yourself for be so disrespected on such a widespread level. It hurts to see people you admire, love, and respect disrespect these brothers and sisters as a whole based off the actions of ONE INDIVIDUAL LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICER, just like one Muslim terrorist does not represent the intentions or beliefs of all Muslims. You can’t support one Cause and preach another when the problem is the same but the rhetoric is different. There are unfortunate things that happen. Very UGLY, NASTY, AND HURTFUL things. These things happen in all professions, and again no one is perfect.

I love statistics and the half story they tell. You see, often statistics provide precise chronology of specific data derived from different subjects. So being a stats guy, here’s a few for you…

Per stats obtained from the FBI, the Washington Post in January tallied the total amount of Officer involved deaths in 2015 at 986.
Directly from the statistics breakdown, and I’ll post a link-

One in ten people shot and killed by police were unarmed.
Fatal shootings of unarmed civilians sparked much of the national debate over police use of deadly force.

The Post found that 9 percent of shootings involved an unarmed victim. The unarmed victims were disproportionately black. In a Post analysis looking at population-adjusted rates, unarmed black men were seven times as likely as unarmed whites to die from police gunfire.

Overall, more than half of those killed in 2015 had guns, 16 percent had knives and 5 percent attempted to hit officers with their vehicles. Three percent had toy weapons, typically replica guns that are indistinguishable from the real thing.”

I don’t particularly agree with adjusting the population rates of any area to distinguish the statistics as less/more favorable. Just present the numbers as they are, unadulterated. Other parts of this article on these statistics say that of those 986 police shootings, only 4% were unarmed black men. Which means if only 9% involved unarmed subjects, 4 of that 9% was black subjects, while 5% involved other races.

There are truths in these statistics! But it’s half truths. We know the exact number of Officer involved deaths is 986. However, we can only figure there were probably hundreds of thousands of arrests, if not millions that did not end this way. 986 of 1,000,000 is what percentage of tragic outcomes? That’s 98.6% that resulted in successful apprehension. Want to help eradicate that other 1.4%? Then, come on and let’s do a few things differently.…/national/police-shootings-year-end/

The REAL problem with America right now, 11:32 AM central time, 9-23-2016 is that we’ve allowed an enemy to Steal from us. One that will kill us. One that WILL destroy us! But, there is Hope, and I said his name a few sentences earlier. Some might not know Him, but that’s okay, I’d love to help you get to know Him. He gave us everything we need to see how He Loved. To see how He treated people deemed unworthy, different, and outcasts. See, He taught us that Salvation was not only for Jews, but for Gentiles as well. The Gospel of Matthew ends with Him commissioning us who love Him to share that love to the ends of the Earth, by any means, at any cost. Do we do that? Let’s turn off these t.v.’s, tune out this social media, and humble and dedicate ourselves to intentionally committing to going out into our communities and neighborhoods shining light whether or not you love Jesus. We can shine by standing together, committing to learn continually, then leading by example through humility, servant hood, and intentional dedication to providing a firm foundation for our younger generation, and unifying ours. That’s unity! It’s beautiful, and skin color has nothing to do with it! This is what’s being stolen from us. Our children look to us to teach, lead and guide them successfully. We have ALOT of work to do! Those Brothers and sisters that Believe in Jesus like I do, let’s dust off that Bible, particularly those Gospels, and actually diligently seek to understand and DO what the words say.

I wipe my tears, put on a smile and push forward .

Thats my life at times.

You never know whats going on in another persons life.

Everybody has a story.

Don’t get caught up in what you see on the outside, looks can be deceiving.

The last 8 months of my life has been a series of ups and downs, it’s been a while since I last posted.

But through all of it, through all the tears, He was with me. He gave me the strength to push forward, to put a smile on my face and to know that He is there.

God has showed me his faithfulness over and over and I can’t even explain it enough.

My husband was out of work for about 5 months. We remained patient and waited for God to move, waited for Him to provide the job he wanted for my husband. He gave my husband discernment about different jobs he was offered and what choice he should make. We made it through those long months on just 1 income. We only made it because of God. Through everything He provided for our every need. Our bills were paid, our children never went without, we made it. And to top it off I was blessed with a promotion at work.

Spiritually I’m not where I want to be, but I think alot of people can probably say the same thing. I know sometimes as Christians we get caught in the mentality that we have to be perfect to display that we are indeed true Christians, followers.

I’ll be the first to say I make mistakes, I make alot of them. I make choices I immediately regret, I wish I wouldn’t have said something or did something. I hurt people, I make bad decisions, or I do nothing at all.

But I have to remember that only Jesus himself was perfect and my job is to love others and to tell people about Him.

I bring myself to Him, bare my soul and ask Him to remove my sin and shame. God is love. The enemy makes you feel guilty, dirty, shameful, low. Jesus came to give life in abundance, love, freedom, hope, deliverance.

Look at yourself, look at your situation. Nothing is beyond saving, nothing is beyond the help of God. He parted oceans, how much more do you think He can do for you?

I love the scripture that speaks of the sparrows. Now I’m paraphrasing, “you see the birds in the sky? Does the father not provide for them, they have food. Now how much more do you think your father in heaven loves you? He will provide for you even more.” I like to think about that and then I’m just like in awe of the Father. It’s so true though. If you surrender it all to Him, he will provide.

Jehovah Jireh, My Provider!

I just want to close out in my usual way, in prayer…

Lord I thank you for all you have done for me, I thank you for meeting my every need. I pray that more people would come to know you. I pray deeper relationships would root in you. I pray for families and marriages that are founded in you. I continue to pray for an uprising in the church. I pray that your name would be proclaimed across the world. I pray for the missionaries all over who are risking their lives to show your love an spread your word. I ask for protection over the heart of your people, that they would not be swayed or misguided. I pray for our leaders, that those in power would come to know you and do your will for our country. I thank you for your son you sent to die for us all. Thank you for washing me clean. Amen.

I wanted to share this song, I have listened to it alot the past few months, it has been my anthem.


25Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air: They do not sow or reap or gather into barns—and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his lifespan? Luke 12:25-27

Philippians 4:19 And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.

Matthew 7:11 If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!

Living with Thanksgiving

“Go forth today, by the help of God’s Spirit, vowing and declaring that in life—-come poverty, come wealth, in death—come pain or come what may, you are and ever must be the Lord’s. For this is written on your heart, ‘We love Him because He first loved us.’” ~ Charles H. Spurgeon

Today people all around the country gather with friends, family, and some even with strangers to give thanks on this Thanksgiving Day. I can’t help but wonder if people are actually giving thanks or just continuing another tradition that was passed on to them, a day of gathering and eating food watching football and then going home.

Today I held a precious, beautiful new life in my hands, and at the same time an old life was ending.

Today I give thanks for life. I give thanks for every breath I take today and for the time the Lord allows me to have here on earth. Each moment, each day is another opportunity for me to show his love, even when its the hardest thing to do.

Be thankful for your life. You only get to live it once. People around the world are fighting for theirs and alot are losing for the sake of Jesus.

Every life the Lord has made has worth, purpose, and meaning. He created us, he knows every moment of our lives before we have breathed our first breath. Do you know you were created with a purpose? You were meant to change lives, you were meant to love, to show others they are valuable too.

14 “You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden. 15 No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father. Matthew 5:14-16

“Where I was born and where and how I have lived is unimportant. It is what I have done with where I have been that should be of interest.” ~ D.L. Moody

I was inspired by the words of a recent speaker at church to make some changes. She said “Wake up for your life not to your life”. What she was trying to say was to wake up with a purpose. Wake up and spend time with Jesus, develop a personal relationship and ask Him to show you something or speak to you. I’ve made it my own personal challenge to just ask God to help me to do His will, for me to show His love, and for me to use my position at work and at home to make an impact. Since I began doing this He has showed me over and over the importance of what I do. Most of the time I feel unappreciated which is common in my line of work. Just like most people I feel like work can become mundane at times. God has opened doors for me to do different things and it’s been up to me to take advantage of what He has for me. Sometimes doing what is asked of me is difficult, and it can even be scary. Even when it’s not easy, trusting in Him for everything in life can be so rewarding.

“I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb.
    Before you were born I set you apart
    and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5

When I feel like nothing I do matters, like I’m not making a difference in anything I do, I ask God for something, anything, a sign, a word, something to tell me what I am doing is making a difference even when I don’t see it. And as always,God is faithful. Everything he says is true.

I see proof in a letter written by my 7 year old, watching the faith he has, seeing firsthand what it is like to have real true childlike faith. I hear his little voice call out to the Lord. His first instinct in all things is to put it in God’s hands. He loves Jesus and the relationship they share. Just seeing this lived out in him shows me that no matter what; my life is impacting my child’s. Whatever I am doing is reflected in my son. That’s worth giving thanks to the Lord for each day.

The Lord will work out his plans for my life—
    for your faithful love, O Lord, endures forever.
    Don’t abandon me, for you made me. Psalms 138:8

Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.Romans 8:37

Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age. Matthew 28:19-20


Lord, I pray that your people would humbly see their worth in you. I pray they would recognize the purpose you have for their lives and boldly live it out. I pray that your people would see the value in each day you give them and take advantage of every opportunity given. I pray that the church would rise up and come together for your purposes in the earth. I pray for strength in your people. I pray that those who do not know you, those who deny you, those who refuse to bow would be shaken to their knees. I pray your voice would be heard loudly across the earth. I pray that more hearts would be turned to you then ever before, let your people increase, may you increase in them. I thank you Lord for the chance to reach out to others. I pray that the words I type are echoed. Thank you Lord,for everything. Amen.


It’s Your breath in our lungs
So we pour out our praise
We pour out our praise
It’s Your breath in our lungs
So we pour out our praise
To You only- All Sons and Daughters “Great are you Lord”


Freedom In Him

Consider it a great joy, my brothers, whenever you experience various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. James 1:2-3


In life we go through seasons. Seasons of blessings, seasons of struggle, seasons of great joy and of growth. No matter what season of life you are in just remember God is always there. My present season in life is a season of struggle. I have been overcome with anxiety, stress, sadness, fear, and uncertainty. I am human, thus I have human emotions. As a believer it has been a struggle to put all of this in God’s hands. I have had to look to His word for comfort and peace. So to you readers, if you are struggling with anything in your life just know that you are not alone. This fight is not one you must fight alone.

I have always been the type of person who takes on the burdens of others. I grieve for others and sometimes the actions of others affect me so much it’s like I am guilty of their sin. It has been a struggle over the past few years to recognize that my part is to intercede for those people and that the debt has already been paid. It has been a struggle for control. I’ve always been a “fixer”, if there is a problem then I automatically think I should find a solution. I see now that its not my job to fix everything. Jesus didn’t come so I would be worried and stressed, He came so I could have peace and abundant life.

This walk with Christ is not easy.So often we are caught up in recognizing the flaws of others we are unable to recognize our own flaws. We are all imperfect people, only one man ever entered this earth that was perfect and blameless and that my friends was Jesus Himself. We must not judge people by what they have done. I myself have been caught up in feeling self righteous and judging others. I try to understand why people do the things they do without fear of consequence.Ultimately sin is sin and I am guilty of sin as well.
As Christians we are to see others through the eyes of Jesus. We are commanded as followers of Jesus to go out and spread the gospel and to love like Jesus did. Jesus surrounded Himself with an unlikely group of people, a “motley crew” of sorts. He dined with sinners, murderers, thieves, prostitutes, adulterers and more, who accepted Him and repented of their sins. We are not above any of the aforementioned. And regardless of what you think, no one is beyond salvation.

A recent sermon from the church I attend really opened my eyes. Heaven and Hell are real places and it’s up to you to decide where you want to spend your eternity. We all have sin that we struggle with and if we don’t let God take reign in our life we cannot change. As a human we can only do so much, we must surrender everything to Him.

Take a step back and examine your life. Is there emptiness somewhere? Do you long for a love like no other? A love that is unchanging, unconditional, unending. Do you know where you will spend your eternity? The love I speak of is real. Finding this love is the first step to a changed life. The bible is filled with stories of Gods unending love, stories of His faithfulness, His mercies, His strength.

Do you know Jesus?

God loved us so much that He sent His ONLY son as a sacrifice, payment for the debt of sin. His son Jesus endured unimaginable pain and suffering for You. Jesus said that He is the way, the truth, and the life and that no man comes to the father (God) except through me. All that He is asking is for you to believe in Him, to accept what He gave for you. but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.Romans 5:8   For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, Ephesians 2:8 because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. Romans 10:9-10

Surrender your life to the Lord. It’s not easy, but it’s worth it. Don’t continue to live for the world, live for something bigger, Someone greater!

My Prayer: Lord, I ask that those who seek You would find you. I ask that your voice would be heard loud and clear by those who are lost. Lord, I pray for breakthrough in the lives of those struggling with sin. Lord, I pray for a movement in the church, that your people would rise up and let their voices be heard as they proclaim that you are Lord. I pray for conviction in the hearts of those who have not repented. I pray for peace and an outpouring of your love. I pray for restoration in marriages, I pray that your people would value  the covenant of marriage just as You do. Lord I pray that your bride would be ready when You come. I pray for peace in my own heart and that you would give me the understanding that only you can give. Heal me of my brokenness and set me free! Father I thank you for everything that you have done and have yet to do. Thank you for your love and mercy. Please speak to the hearts of those who do not know you. Bring revival in your church. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

27 “Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Your heart must not be troubled or fearful. John 14:27

Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6:34

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. 1 Corinthians 10:13

Keep The Faith and Share His Love


I usually try to avoid staying up to date on current events. I’m lost when it comes to conversations at work about reality shows, new music and what’s going on with this celebrity and that person over there. Most of the time I check the weather and that’s about it. Recently it has come to my attention that some things are unavoidable, or in other words some things will be smeared across everything you see. There’s alot to learn from the covers of the magazines at the grocery store checkout, from abortion laws, immigration laws, to marriage being redefined,there’s alot going on in this world. Most of the time the good things going on are overshadowed by the bad.

Recently I’ve read multiple posts, articles, comments from others about current events involving our government and laws that have been enacted. My first response (the flesh) of course was to be bothered and have my feathers completely ruffled by the events. But it took just a few sentences to make things clearer to me (my spirit). To paraphrase a post I read ” We are trying to make this world more comfortable for Christians, but this world does not belong to Christians, this is not our home.”

As Christians we try and do whatever we can to make this world to line up with what our bible says is right. But we completely miss what it says! We are not of this world! Those who are in Christ Jesus will be taken from this world! So why are we so upset about what is happening? Every thing that happens in this world that is against God’s word is just another fulfillment of scripture! I’m not going off on an end of times tangent but I’m just saying in the end the people of this world will fall away from Jesus and mock God’s word. The people who do not know Jesus will continue to do whatever they want and have no regard for the people around them.

The job of the Church is to fulfill the commandment that was given by Jesus. We are to love others as our self and to love God! Jesus loved the sinners but not the sin. When we show people love they see Jesus in us,This is how people are saved. If you accepted the salvation that Jesus has offered then you have accepted His command as well. Do not go off on a hate fueled rampage and persecute and judge others. The job of judge, jury, and executioner belongs to the Most High!

33“Little children, I am with you a little while longer. You will seek Me; and as I said to the Jews, now I also say to you, ‘Where I am going, you cannot come.’ 34“A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another, even as I have loved you, that you also love one another. 35“By this all men will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another. John 13:33-35

We are to encourage, help bring healing and love.

Our faith is being tested here, but remember you will produce endurance and perseverance if you stand on God’s word and His promises! We will have to endure the things of this world. We will see things we never wished to see and our children as well. But as Jesus said “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

So I say to you, people of the world. Pray for the nation and the world, pray for your family, your neighbor. Pray for the drug addicts, alcoholics, the homeless, the prostitutes, the murderers, pray for everybody! I have seen people healed and delivered from their afflictions, after all Jesus is a healer! As a mere human we cannot change the world, only Jesus can!

My Prayer:

Jesus, I pray for strength  for your people. I pray that we would not grow weary in doing what is right and doing what you have commanded. I know we will face so much persecution for believing in you, I just ask that our faith would be renewed, I ask that you would pour out your refreshing water upon the hearts of your people. Help us as a people to stand firm on your word,to face what is yet to come, to know that you are with us always and that anything is possible with You! Give us words to say to those who don’t know you, and help us to take advantage of every opportunity you give us to reach out to others. I pray that our hearts would overflow and your love would pour out of us onto others. I thank you so much for the sacrifice you gave and for every blessing you continue to give. I pray for protection and strength over all of us.I pray that those who love you would not be a stumbling block to others. I pray for eyes and hearts of unbelievers to be opened to you. I pray for repentance, that people would turn from their wicked ways! In your name I ask and pray, Amen.

The Letters to the Seven Churches

The Letter to Ephesus

“Write to the angel[a] of the church in Ephesus:

“The One who holds the seven stars in His right hand and who walks among the seven gold lampstands says: I know your works, your labor, and your endurance, and that you cannot tolerate evil. You have tested those who call themselves apostles and are not, and you have found them to be liars. You also possess endurance and have tolerated many things because of My name and have not grown weary. But I have this against you: You have abandoned the love you had at first. Remember then how far you have fallen; repent, and do the works you did at first. Otherwise, I will come to you[b] and remove your lampstand from its place—unless you repent. Yet you do have this: You hate the practices of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate.

“Anyone who has an ear should listen to what the Spirit says to the churches. I will give the victor the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in[c] God’s paradise.

The Letter to Smyrna

“Write to the angel of the church in Smyrna:

“The First and the Last, the One who was dead and came to life, says: I know your[d] affliction and poverty, yet you are rich. I know the slander of those who say they are Jews and are not, but are a synagogue of Satan. 10 Don’t be afraid of what you are about to suffer. Look, the Devil is about to throw some of you into prison to test you, and you will have affliction for 10 days. Be faithful until death, and I will give you the crown[e] of life.

11 “Anyone who has an ear should listen to what the Spirit says to the churches. The victor will never be harmed by the second death.

The Letter to Pergamum

12 “Write to the angel of the church in Pergamum:

“The One who has the sharp, double-edged sword says: 13 I know[f] where you live—where Satan’s throne is! And you are holding on to My name and did not deny your faith in Me,[g] even in the days of Antipas, My faithful witness who was killed among you, where Satan lives. 14 But I have a few things against you. You have some there who hold to the teaching of Balaam, who taught Balak to place a stumbling block[h] in front of the Israelites: to eat meat sacrificed to idols and to commit sexual immorality.[i] 15 In the same way, you also have those who hold to the teaching of the Nicolaitans.[j] 16 Therefore repent! Otherwise, I will come to you quickly and fight against them with the sword of My mouth.

17 “Anyone who has an ear should listen to what the Spirit says to the churches. I will give the victor some of the hidden manna.[k] I will also give him a white stone, and on the stone a new name is inscribed that no one knows except the one who receives it.

The Letter to Thyatira

18 “Write to the angel of the church in Thyatira:

“The Son of God, the One whose eyes are like a fiery flame and whose feet are like fine bronze,[l] says: 19 I know your works—your love, faithfulness,[m] service, and endurance. Your last works are greater than the first. 20 But I have this against you: You tolerate the woman Jezebel, who calls herself a prophetess and teaches and deceives My slaves to commit sexual immorality[n] and to eat meat sacrificed to idols. 21 I gave her time to repent, but she does not want to repent of her sexual immorality.[o] 22 Look! I will throw her into a sickbed and those who commit adultery with her into great tribulation, unless they repent of her[p] practices. 23 I will kill her children with the plague.[q] Then all the churches will know that I am the One who examines minds[r] and hearts, and I will give to each of you according to your works. 24 I say to the rest of you in Thyatira, who do not hold this teaching, who haven’t known the deep things[s] of Satan—as they say—I do not put any other burden on you. 25 But hold on to what you have until I come. 26 The one who is victorious and keeps My works to the end: I will give him authority over the nations—

27 and he will shepherd[t] them with an iron scepter;
he will shatter them like pottery[u]

just as I have received this from My Father. 28 I will also give him the morning star.

29 “Anyone who has an ear should listen to what the Spirit says to the churches.


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Jesus,Save The World


James 5:16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.

Being a parent is tough, especially when it comes to explaining things to your kids. Even though my children are young I have still had some awkward conversations with them. Sometimes its just amazing to see how my kids respond to what I tell them, when I feed their interests. My son especially surprises me with the way he comprehends and interprets what I have said to him when we have an in depth conversation.

Discussing the recent events in our city has been a conversation I was hoping to avoid. I had no intention of telling my son about the Twin Peaks incident here in Waco,Texas. Unfortunately he overheard me and my husband talking and he immediately began asking questions. My husbands answer to him was, something happened on the other side of town and we need to stay home tonight to make sure we are safe. His questions were silenced, or so we thought.

Later that night as I put the children to bed my son looked at me and asked “What happened in Waco?”. The only explanation I could give him was that some guys at a restaurant got into a big fight and some of them had guns and some of them died but the police were taking care of everything. I told him we should include them in our prayers. The words that came out of this kids mouth were like nothing I could have imagined. He asked for protection over our city. He asked Jesus to change the hearts of the “bad guys”, for them to give their lives to Jesus and for Him to forgive them of their sins. He wanted the “bad guys” to know that Jesus loves them and can forgive them and they don’t have to be “bad” anymore, they can be saved. I can’t even describe in words what I felt as this 6 year old boy brought me to tears.

With the events that took place as well as all of the other violent acts that have happened across our country all I see is alot of judgement and hate. We are all a work of the master. Fearfully and wonderfully made. Intricately woven together in our mothers womb! Regardless of the different shades of our skin. Do our hearts not beat the same? Do we not breath in and out?

If we are called to live like Jesus then where is our compassion? Jesus hung around with murderers, thieves, adulterers. He shared His meals with those that are discriminated against because of their outward appearance and their actions. He forgave, and He still forgives.

I am in no way justifying the incredibly unacceptable behavior that seems to be running rampant in the earth. I am saying we should be praying for the salvation of souls, the renewal of hope! Jesus said what is asked in His name can be done and we should believe in it! Where two or more are gathered there He is. This nation is in need of a revival. Those who follow Jesus need to rise up, we need to recognize and believe and trust fully in the name of Jesus. Until we recognize this we are doomed.

The main point of this post is that if my 6 year old son can see that those who commit acts of violence, criminals and murderers,are in need of a savior and he takes the time to lift them up in prayer…..What’s stopping you?

Lift your neighborhood, city,county, state, country, world up in prayer. It’s the only way we will see breakthrough on this earth.

My Prayer :

Lord, You see the violence, the hate, the crime, the unspeakable acts that are going on in the world. I ask that your spirit would pour out upon the earth. I pray for an uprising of your people. That you would be glorified Lord in all the earth. That those who believe in you would not be ashamed of declaring your name. I pray that we would rise up to answer your call, that we would bring your word to the lost. That eyes would be opened to your love and majesty. Fill our hearts Lord with love that overflows. Help us to love the poor, the lost, the unfortunate, the fatherless, the orphan, the widow. Help us to do your work. Lord forgive those who have sinned against you. Thank you for all you have done. Thank you for all that you will do. Thank you for another day of life and another day to shower your love on others. Let your kingdom come on this earth. I ask all of this in Jesus name, Amen.

P.S. I let my son title this post and pick the video, I think its appropriate  🙂

For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.1Samuel 16:7

2 Then He called a child to Him and had him stand among them. 3 “I assure you,” He said, “unless you are converted[a] and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child—this one is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.Matthew 18:2-4

Therefore I tell you, all the things you pray and ask for–believe that you have received them, and you will have them. Mark 11:24

1 Timothy 2:1-2 First of all, then, I urge that supplications, prayers, intercessions, and thanksgivings be made for all people, for kings and all who are in high positions, that we may lead a peaceful and quiet life, godly and dignified in every way.

In the same way the Spirit also joins to help in our weakness, because we do not know what to pray for as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with unspoken groanings. Romans 8:26



Calling all readers and people of the World!

For those that do not know. There was a shootout at a local restaurant involving rival biker gangs. There were people murdered and several injuries reported.

I call Waco home and for something this tragic to happen just a few miles from me is unnerving. I drive by the location of this incident every morning and every afternoon going and coming from work.

I’m just asking that you please pray for our community and those directly affected by this tragedy. Let us all come together in one voice to ask Jesus to intervene in the mix. It is not to late for those involved to have their hearts changed forever, for the voice of truth to speak to them.

My Prayer:

Lord, I ask that there would be a move of the Holy Spirit over Waco Texas. I ask that your peace would guard the hearts and minds of the people who live here and those that have lost someone. Lord protect those around this incident,guide the law enforcement officials to do what is just, what i right. I pray for those who do not know you to hear your voice loud and clear! I ask in the name of Jesus that the enemy flees from Waco Texas and that the violence and killing would cease. I ask that the people who live here would be able to leave their homes without fear for you have not given us a spirit of fearfulness, but one of power, love, and sound judgment. Lord let your hope and peace pour out over all of us. Bring change and breakthrough in this city! I thank you Lord for the bravery of those involved who are doing your will, trying to protect your people. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phillipians4:6-7

For God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness,l but one of power,love, and sound judgment.2 Timothy 1:7

It’s a tough job but somebody’s gotta do it

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it his not arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;2 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

As a mother i I understand that the above can be hard to remember at times.  With all lifes demands parenting can be overwhelming and sometimes leave you feeling empty inside and like a failure. I have felt this way on a few occasions. After all we are raising children who are born sinners and they have to be taught how to live a life devoted to Christ. I just hope that those reading this would know that they are not alone in this.
God trusted you enough to give you children knowing that you were the only one who could train up His children. I’ll admit this task can be frustrating and at times seem impossible. When I’m at my lowest point and I feel as though I have completely failed my husband and children I see a glimpse of the great works that are happening in our home. I see the seeds that I sow in my children begin to flourish and I know that even though the enemy tries to put me down and tell me I’m not enough ; I see that there could not be a better mother for my children then me. The Lord is faithful to finish the work that he starts!
Friends,  you were chosen, hand picked for this job, and God will provide everything necessary to do your work,His work.  It’s a tough job but somebody’s gotta do it. 
Take a moment to thank Him for what he has done in your life,  for what He has given physically and spiritually. Let God speak to you and guide you as to how you should discipline and direct your children.
I just want to offer up prayer now:
Lord, I  know you see the hearts of hurting mothers and fathers.  Those who have been led to believe they are not enough and are undeserving.  Fill their hearts with your grace and let them know their worth. Help them to rise up and be leaders in their homes,to raise godly children.  I rebuke any lies of the enemy in Jesus’ name. Help us to raise up a generation of people who seek you and come to know you. Fill our hearts,minds, and dreams of your visions. Thank you for every opportunity you give to show your love and grace. May we be quick to pour out grace as well. Thank you again for your love. In Jesus name, Amen.

I’ll Praise You In This Storm


I just wanted to share a story about my first trip out of state EVER! A story about trusting in God and believing in His faithfulness.

A few weeks ago my 6 year old son and I traveled to Oklahoma. We followed my family up there, I’m not the greatest with directions or maps. On the way to Oklahoma it began to rain heavily, the wind picked up, and the road was almost impossible to see,I was terrified. The closer we got to the Oklahoma border the worse the weather got, we could barely see where we were going through sheets of rain and my  weather alert on my phone kept going off saying tornado watch. When lightning would strike you could see funnel shaped clouds coming down. My son was cool as a cucumber through all of it. I don’t think I have ever felt panic like that in my life. Crazy thoughts went through my head, “What if I don’t make it to Oklahoma? What if I don’t make it home? What will become of my daughter and husband if we don’t make it back ?”. But what went through my head that bothered me the most was “I am carrying precious cargo in this car, and what if  I can’t protect him?”.

I reached my hand back to my son and said you have got to pray with mama because she is very scared right now. He took my hand and prayed, then I too prayed. I turned my music up and cried out to God for help. I asked Jesus to please calm the storm like He commanded the waves to cease. I spoke out His promises and truths. As I was crying out, worshiping and praying to God I heard a voice say, ” Where is your God? Why is this storm still raging? Shouldn’t this have stopped by now, you asked Him right? Just like I said where is your God?”. That ugly word DOUBT! That’s what I was doing, having doubts and questioning His sovereignty. Be Patient! Never put a question mark where God put a period! The enemy seeks out opportunities to make you have doubts and to question what you believe in. He looks to discredit our loving Lord.

6 So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor. 7Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.8Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:6-8

I continued to pray and pressed into worship and I heard a word from God. He said “Be Patient”. So I continued to pray and worship and cry out that God knows the desire of my heart right now is to arrive at my destination without injury. I was reassured that God is who He says He is and he made the rain the clouds the wind and everything else. I told myself I must be patient! Within a matter of minutes the rain slowed down significantly and I was able to see where I was going. We crossed the border and the closer we got to our destination the less it rained until finally it stopped!

Joshua 23:14 HCSB I am now going the way of all the earth, and you know with all your heart and all your soul that none of the good promises the LORD your God made to you has failed. Everything was fulfilled for you; not one promise has failed.

Sometimes we ask for things in prayer and they come instantly, sometimes we have to wait a little bit, sometimes we have to wait a while and be patient, and sometimes our prayer is answered in a way that feels like it wasn’t really answered at all. I just want to re-assure you that our God is a loving and caring God. He knew you before you were formed in your mothers womb and He knows every need before you even pray for it.

Numbers 23:19 HCSB God is not a man who lies, or a son of man who changes His mind. Does He speak and not act, or promise and not fulfill?

Over the past few months God has repeatedly shown me who He is. He has shown me His strength and that He is faithful to His word. Anything you are going through, any trial you are faced with He already knows and He already has a solution.If you put your trust in Him and allow Him to completely change your life you will see what He can do through you.

Remember to praise Him in every circumstance. You are alive and breathing and reading this. He has a plan for your life. He loves you so much He allowed His son to endure a painful torturous death.

My prayer:

Lord I pray that your children would come before you with their needs, lay their burdens down at your feet. I pray that faith would be strengthened and lives would be committed to you. Lord you are sovereign, you are capable of all things. I pray your children would rise up and spread the message of Your love across the world. I pray that people would see the work that You do and their hearts would be turned to you, that there would be a great revival across the nations of the world. I pray that chains would begin to fall off of those who are oppressed and the captives would be set free in Your name! Bring an outpouring Lord. I thank You for Your love, Your grace, Your mercy, Your never ending promises. Thank you for everything! Amen Jesus

Genesis 28:15 Look, I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go. I will bring you back to this land, for I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.
 1 Corinthians 1:9 NLT God will do this, for he is faithful to do what he says, and he has invited you into partnership with his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.

Mark 4:35-41 HCSB 35 As evening came, Jesus said to his disciples, “Let’s cross to the other side of the lake.”36 He was already in the boat, so they started out, leaving the crowds behind (although other boats followed).37 But soon a fierce storm arose. High waves began to break into the boat until it was nearly full of water.38 Jesus was sleeping at the back of the boat with his head on a cushion. Frantically they woke him up, shouting, “Teacher, don’t you even care that we are going to drown?”39 When he woke up, he rebuked the wind and said to the water, “Quiet down!” Suddenly the wind stopped, and there was a great calm.

40 And he asked them, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still not have faith in me?”41 And they were filled with awe and said among themselves, “Who is this man, that even the wind and waves obey him?”
Romans 4:20-21 NASB 20 yet, with respect to the promise of God, he did not waver in unbelief but grew strong in faith, giving glory to God, 21 and being fully assured that what God had promised, He was able also to perform.